The whole family suffers, grieves, lives with PTSD, we experience our own individual nightmares everyday because each of us mentally have blocked out certain parts but vividly remember other moments. We as a family were once close, on the same page… My husband and I were so proud how close our 4 boys were. Protectors, buddy’s, teachers… they loved each other so much. Of course they had brother fights.. what family doesn’t? But they were back to buddy’s in no time. 🙂
Fast forward to almost 2 1/2 years later and Kenny’s 3 brothers can not get along. It breaks my heart. I wish I could fix their hearts and be able to make sure they feel happiness.. I want them to remember and care for each other like they did before. I feel like Kenny was the glue that held so many of us together, now were all lost.
When I say KennyBug was the glue that held us together, for an example: Kenny adored family time.. get togethers with family, he adored all of his family.. Grandparents, Aunts,Uncles, Cousins.. and you could always find him sitting with the adults 😉 He was such a joy!
We all sense his loss in our every day life, every day.. and every day makes it one more that we havent seen, heard or felt Kenny’s love… Kenny had a wonderful smile with his beautiful eyes.. a contagious laugh and he always made people feel good about themselves, loved.
Kenny was a treasure I wish the world would of gotten to know.. but with his story I feel like he is helping children speak out against bullying and we get some sense of peace knowing that.
Please in situations of loss, sudden or not, no matter what the manner… remember the siblings, they suffer their own kind of grief 😦
Sincerely! Angie, KennyBugs Momma!
Even though I work with kids you have been through trauma I also am a trauma survivor. My father committed suicide when I was seven. My mom became very depressed and my sister who was 3 years older then me basically raised ourselves. I had many many problems due to this. I encourage you to seek out help for your family. My mom never really did recover only through my faith that I found later and therapy was I able to get through that trauma. Unfortunately that was when I was in my late twenties please don’t wait to seek help if you have not already done so. I know the guilt people feel after a loved one commits suicide which is unfounded even at seven I felt that way. Kenny would want you all to take care of yourselves please do this if not for yourselves then for him.
I feel somewhat robbed because I never got to meet Kenny! When I see your posts about Kenny, I have learned how caring, sweet and loving he is and how huge his heart is!!! My heart hurts knowing what he went through at school and at work! I often wonder how Kenny’s brothers are coping, but never ask because it seems like a dumb question. I do think about them, as well as both you and your husband.