I’ve had some good days lately.. days where I want to be outside, watching my hummingbirds, listening to the birds.. just taking in all the beautiful nature around me. When I get these days I try to take it in as much as I can. That may sound silly, but for me, it’s a necessity. I enjoy time to myself more than anything, that may seem odd, but I do. Why? When I’m by myself, outside just listening.. my mind can wonder and go back in time. I can picture all my boys young, playing, laughing, running around having so much fun and they are all there together. I can sit and look at photos, smile, laugh and cry all at once and not have to explain or hide my tears. These are times that I need.
So here’s some beauty from my good days!!
With all the sadness and heartache I live with daily missing Kenny.. I do have “ good” days! That doesn’t mean I don’t cry and feel his loss, it just means I can enjoy the simple joys in life without feeling guilt. For many that won’t make sense but it’s just a feeling I have. How can I be happy? How can I enjoy a pretty day? When my son can’t?! It’s very hard to navigate through all the emotions felt each day, but I do my best! And that has to be enough!
Ok one more beautiful picture!
It’s ok to feel some twinge of happiness..
With Love, hugs and understanding.. Angela, KennyBugs Momma! 🦋🥰🦋🥰